My demons My Teachers.

You have done therapy, you meditate, you eat well, you go to seminars to evolve and expand your mental emotional and spiritual growth. And still, you see this person and suddenly you go back to that memory that makes your stomach contract, you talk with your best friend and something they say hits your more sensitive chord and you are relieving your trauma, you wake up and your thoughts are full of instances of a past long lost and believed forgotten experience, and there you are in your bed feeling angry, sad, and confused cause you thought you were done with this. You are also angry at yourself because what the heck, I am giving 2/3 of my monthly salary to therapy and self growth meetings and here I am Again!! What is wrong with me??!!

Well, first of all, Life Happens, And Life Happens According to US! What does this mean? That we Create in our reality the mirror of our frequencial resonance. That is actually good to know and have it clear. Life Does Not Happen to You, You Happen to Life! And it is not a bad thing.

Yes the experience that you have might be disliked, raw, bitter, sour. At the end of the day, all these tastes you have about it are your Reactions to it, Reactions to the Awaken Trauma, they are signs of where you stand regarding the experience. The fact that you have “called” it again in your life, means that you need to see it again in order to move forward. It does not mean that your years of therapy or all the hours of seminars and meditation have gone to waste. On the Contrary!! It means that while you progress you are gonna keep on cleansing your self from all the blockages that keep you away from Love, from Self Love, from Self Worth, from your Creativity and Authenticity, from the Real True You!!!

Many times these bitter moments appear in our closest relationships, and the way I see it, the closest the relationship, the closer we are in finishing with this issue, because the close most loving relationships push our heart to realising deeply, to wanting to change and act differently and let go of the patterns and repetitions that used to be our comfort zone, keeping us in the illusion of safety instead of the reality of Love. We move forward and change exactly because we love that person, and we really want to work on making things better, so yes, here is where we are going to work our hardest to evolve in order to transform our relationship for the better. Hard weird relationships are our best most loving Teachers!

And when that situation appears again, lets call it an OPPORTUNITY! Let’s observe our Re-Action or Action, and depending on the taste it leaves in our mouth we know if we have to work more on that or if we are done!

Our Shadow is the part of our psyche that is in pain. It does not only contain Our pain but also the pain of our blood generation, maybe part of our neighbourhood’s or even country’s pain, since the place we are born, live and spend most of our time is collectively karmically connected to us and we to that energy. And we, through being conscious of what is happening, we make the decision to work actively on healing this shadow, on Breathing it Deeply thus we Transform it, Transmute it, Transcend it. Healing the shadow, means expanding our Self in order to illuminate, accept, contain the experience, to centre our being in a way that the experience is nothing more than simply an experience, an event with no negative or positive personal charge. Purity floods in the system and we allow the release and most importantly We Let Go!

This we do For Us and for the benefit of All Sentient Beings.

RUMI:

'Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”

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